Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Are you blue? Do you even care?

I question my abilities sometimes. I need a fucking cigarette.
Riding the train through California, I never realized how big of a state it truly is. To have so much open land, so many people, and to feel entirely alone when night comes, well, honestly baby, it's a gut-wrenching feeling.

I am missing a whole city tonight. I wish for once in my life, I could have a white Christmas. I've always had this pressing desire to have it snow during the holidays. Oh, how lovely that would be... you, me, and some snow.
It's raining tonight. Ironic how it hasn't been raining that much in Seattle lately, but within a few days, it is pouring buckets in California. Guess it knows how much I am missing you tonight.

Like I said, I need a fucking cigarette.

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."

1 comment:

TomatoOnWheat said...

you have a tendency to hate everything in your life until you're in a shittier situation. Life ain't so bad, sugarmuffin.

I'm still in Vietnam, enjoying it AND the Joy Luck Club greatly. I can't believe you're back in Seattle already. Maybe i'll actually use my miles this time and come visit you.